This is going to be quick because I just wanted to go over this. The reason I don't like to call myself black is that it relegates me into the binary and divisive thinking ingrained into people's minds over in the West. I understand there would be hypocrisy and irony in this approach as I have no problem saying "nigga," but calling myself black it just enables being without a cultural identity, while simultaneously activating all of the negative stigmas Europeans have in their DNA from their ancestors.
Of course, I know I shouldn't care about their opinions and views, but I've come to understand just like with "nigga," "black" was a term initially spoken to disparage, then contorted with reverse psychology to make it so we as a people embraced being called what others referred to us in jest and dismay. With black though, it just feels lazy to me. When I go to Africa, I'm not going to run around the continent calling people black, and I don't believe my African comrades would appreciate me eschewing their culture only to refer to them as the absence of light.
I do my best to not refer to myself as "black" or "African American." As someone born to Jamaicans, I honestly take more pride in having a connection there than in being an "American," which I find disappointing, depressing, and utterly embarrassing. Growing up, I went to predominantly Caribbean grade schools where they taught us about all of the great African visionaries, scholars, and entrepreneurs, like Thurgood Marshall, Madame CJ Walker, and Mae Jemison. During those times in my early youth, being "black" felt great. To see so many amazing things accomplished and to hear that traffic lights, spark plugs, SuperSoakers, and so many more pivotal inventions were created by someone that looked like me felt inspiring.
Now, it just feels like a stigma, as it was before these men and women paved the way, or at least attempted to. One of the biggest reasons I don't want to call myself black anymore is Black Lives Matters, the Soros-funded, Leninist-Marxist organization, that seeks more to capitalize off the death of Melanated Men, rather than help them. Black Lives Matters hijacked the acronym of the Black Liberation Movement, and even the original Black Lives Matters movement, to create a group brainwashing my people and others into a group of useful idiots, who would then trot out in their shirts plastered with a slogan that was said more than it was practiced, especially by the same people who pushed it.
That's all I'll say about them. They don't represent me, they want to use my dead body to push an agenda. That's why they never even mentioned a world where "black" men lead, instead of leaving that up to black trans individuals. They never addressed the fact that buck-breaking and Roman pedophilia seeped into "black" culture from the moment Egypt was invaded. Or how much the emasculation of "black" men was promoted and encouraged in this country. All they do is wait for another black man to die for them to swoop in on the spotlight and virtue-signalling glory. They're no different than Al Sharp-Tongue and Ben Crump.
As harsh as it is to say this: "black" culture is a failure. It failed to produce anything that we as a people could actually benefit from. The truth is "black" culture has killed where African culture knows it can heal. This is just my perspective and how I feel. I don't feel any true connection to the people here who call themselves "black." It feels more like a puppet of European edict prideful of their subservience. We do everything the European colonizers expect us to do and then fall for their waiting trap hook, line, and sinker.
I know there are people who attach sentimentality to the word "black" in relation to being African, but to me, it doesn't have the same effect. I am African, I love Africa, and I love African people. I love that there are Nigerians, Ivorians, Ethiopians, Kenyans, and Congolese, to name a few. Each with their own distinct cultures of cuisine, garb, and customs, all undisturbed by Eurocentricity. Black culture is the opposite. It's the amalgamation of responses to European cultural prevalence.
As crazy as it may sound, "black" culture is as European as it is African. It was the Europeans who created the tools and cuisines to which Africans in the USA embraced and honed into their own while preserving as much as they could from back home. And it was also the Europeans who perverted, suppressed, and sabotaged the efforts of Africans in the USA to relocate it. They want me to call myself black, so they can use it as a talking point at their next debates, or sell me some celebrity (usually light-skinned) pushing a seemingly "pro-black" agenda.
For others, they won't notice. But to me, I've peeped game.